One of the things about social media, including blogs, is that you tend to put on a happy face. This blog has given readers brief, fleeting glances at some of the not-so-great parts of my life, but for the most part, I seek out the silver lining and share it publicly. For that reason, this will come as a surprise to many.
Greg and I returned our little baby Enzo to his breeder yesterday. While he has been a bright, shining star of happiness and love in our lives, he was also a giant wedge in our relationship and cause of agony and resentment. Here’s how we explained it to friends on Facebook:
It was a tough decision that we know was the right one. I kept hearing the advice I offered my granddaughter over the summer when she made the tough decision to give up gymnastics for all the right reasons. She was doing exceptionally well … winning several state championships in her age group … but was already recognizing the toll it was taking on her and her family. She struggled with the decision and how to tell her coaches. I gave her the best advice I could think of: Sometimes the hardest decisions are the best ones and despite the agony of making them, the end result is that you know your decision was the right one.
We all make these in our lives … tough decisions that feel impossible. Sometimes, we can’t muster up the courage to make the decision, so we suffer the consequences of making the wrong one. Yesterday was that tough decision. I cried most of the day, but I know some family will adopt our sweet baby and he will live a full and happy life.
I’m grateful for Greg’s support. We had spent long hours talking about how Enzo was destroying our relationship with each other. We fought ourselves and each other in an attempt to fix things. In the end we chose each other over our puppy while he is still young enough to find a new home. I can’t say there is any joy in this. There is most definitely not! I can say that in my heart, I know I did the right thing.
There’s a whole world out there just waiting to be explored. Find the strength to make the right, but tough, decisions.
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2 thoughts on “Day 360 – A Year of Gratitude and Joy – Tough Decisions”
Sending you both the biggest hugs and love. I know that had to be a very tough decision. I’m sure you are heartbroken. Take care of yourself and know you made the right choice given the circumstances.
I’m not one to respond to articles and such but I do have to say that if you are brave enough to do it and save yourself and your husband relationship you are my hero. Enzo will always be a happy memory and it’s tough to do but if you love him you made the right choice. Be at peace with yourself. .